We woke up way to early..and one of my sister doggies Jillian got out of the gate, so Amber panicked and when she was found by some nice fellow, everyone felt a relief. There is a small menagerie at our home, there is me, jillian, and Sasha...of course we are all full bred brats, with two fish. I won't count Amber's tattoo of a turtle as a pet. The house is always fluttering with anxious excitement of some sort, and when we are left alone we can't wait for someone to come home. We jump up and down, growl, bark and basically scare away anyone coming in the houe but Amber and Annmarie.....Did I mention...Our roomate Annmarie is a princess..and if it's pink, it's hers.
Sometimes in life we have unrealistic goals and expectations. But this is the American Dream.....where you can do anything. Today Amber went to work hoping to take on the world. She handed some screenplays to an independant filmmaking company--said a prayer and put the results in Gods hands. She also gave two amazing screenplays that friends wrote to the guys---because they were good, and karma of serving others is important. Watching others succeed makes my tail wag. But is the dream of being successful and making major motion pictures too much to dream for? Others do it, why not her? The success in her independant film life is just enough to keep on trudging. Sometimes she wishes she didn't have such high dreams and expectations. Life would be alot simpler if she just married a good ol boy, made dinner, had kids....and went to church on Sunday. But the instinct and drive would never let her do that.
Relationships have been a challenge for Amber this week, but I never let her out of my site and she knows she is loved. Relationships can be hard because it's another place where great expectations can be there, and people can let us down. Friends become family for me and Amber. Her feelings are still a bit sour today from the friendship that was broken a few days ago. A real friend would communicate and consider the other persons feelings. Romance.....well let's not even go there. I really like Amber's guy, but sometimes she is unhappy with him. I know I wont be taking any rings down a wedding isle, and I want that for her. I can imagine her with a big beautiful gown with a prince charming at the end. Prince Charming was a polygamist though- saving all the different women..Cinderella, Snow White, Rupunzel... the women are probobly having a challenging happily ever after in their story too, but we never hear about that.
Today Amber heard from her girlfriend Happy which brings back alot of memories from a past that was so long ago, and now only remembered in stories. Makes me think of who we are now, who we wanted to be, and who we were then.
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