Unzipped

Today Amber has finally come unzipped. Amys death has awakened alot of demons, fears, and upsets.



The feelings swirling around are like a snowball..rolling down a hill and gaining steam. Amber has to stop it before it becomes an avalanche of hurled emotion--- and try to gain emotional mastery of some sort today. Amber doesn't want her internal anger to take over so it's time to only allow the kindness of others in--and avoid any emotional trauma. It's time to TRUST INNER KNOWLEDGE, AND ACT UPON IT WITHOUT DELAY.

It's hard to take action when your doubtful of the unknown. So prayer and turning it over is the only thing Amber can do today. Signs are around if we just open up to prayer..have an open heart and turn things over. Amber doesn't want to be mean to anyone..but she is so full of static around relationships that there is no clear way around it. So now it's time for the next step...letting go and letting God...and that leaves the unknown. The unknown is scary, but letting someone go instead of hurting them is the ultimate way to love someone. Keeping them around to fill a void of loneliness is selfish.

So today there will be no more games....and it will be a day of reflection as living our best life is applied. It takes God to turn over a new leaf. It takes remembering our soul, who we are, and what our higher purpose is. This life is a blessed one.

So now Amber has to do the next thing in front of her and go moment by moment and serve others. Today she is working on Canoe dancing script for the Discovery Channel.

Slept like a Olive in a martini glass last night....swirling swirling.